How Great is that Darkness….

steps-leading-from-dark-to-lightQuite often, I find myself feeling a tad guilty or embarrassed, because I engaged with someone either in person or online, and wound up launching into some massive tirade about something like what really happened to Building 7, or how ISIS is a creation of American/Israeli intelligence forces, or how you can’t believe any of the tripe being droned into your head through the mainstream media, and so on…

Around the time of the 9/11 anniversary a week ago, it got especially bad, and there were a couple of bloggers who I regularly frequent their writings who were subjected to having me essentially completely take over their comment sections and dive into heated debate with a bunch of people I’ve never met over why the official 9/11 story is patently and provably false. I honestly felt quite embarrassed about it afterwards. After all, I should know better by now. I should at this point be able to appreciate just how unrealistic a thing it is for me to expect that I can go and write a few blog comments somewhere and cause someone to instantly do a complete 180 on a subject that goes to the very core of what they’ve been indoctrinated into believing for the entirety of their lives. I start thinking about it, later in the day, and just kicking myself, feeling like a real jacka** for once again, getting sucked into trying to beat someone else over the head with my 9/11 truth stick. Am I really just that arrogant? Drawn to the idea of “crazy conspiracy theories” because in some backwards, twisted way, they “empower” me with a type of insider knowledge that the majority of the “sleeping public” can’t or won’t open their eyes too?

Do I seriously just have some kind of psychological or emotional issue going on, and in fact suffer from being “obsessed” with talking about “conspiracies”, as many people in my extended family have asserted…?

Well… Like I said, I wrestle with these kinds of thoughts on a fairly regular basis. I start letting the accusations of “you’re just crazy” get to me, without even realizing it, and then the guilt and self doubt start to set in. But then, I come across something like this article on Nicole Kidman’s recently deceased father, which I read yesterday, and I am reminded of really what all is “at stake” here:
Nicole Kidman’s Father Dies Suddenly Amid Pedophile, Child Murder Ring Allegations.

1410508130648_wps_13_Nicole_and_dad_Antony_KidBy wkchild on September 17, 2014
Source: Before Its News

Dr. Antony Kidman died Friday after fleeing Australia when accused of the sexual abuse and murder of children in an elite Sydney pedophile ring. A month prior Fiona Barnett had filed a complaint with the Australian NSW police and Child Abuse Royal Commission alleging Kidman’s sexual and physical assaults on her throughout childhood. When the Commission opened an investigation the clinical psychologist suddenly left his 43 years with the Sydney University of Technology and Royal North Shore Hospital to stay in Singapore until he died. The family has refused to comment and Singapore police opened an investigation on what they termed as an unnatural death.

Yesterday Barnett released her own theory about Kidman’s death,” The main perpetrator of my child sexual abuse, Antony Kidman, is dead after I filed formal complaints accusing him of the rape, torture and murder of children in an exclusive Sydney pedophile ring. As a child victim of mind control I feel he’s been sacrificed for failing to adequately program me.”

“Kidman was responsible for ensuring that I never disclosed pedophile ring activities that I witnessed as a child,” she continued. “He failed.”

News of Kidman’s death impacted me, someone who has undergone intense treatment. I know that there are other victims of Kidman’s crimes out there who are perhaps not as far along the healing path as I am. I anticipate that news of Kidman’s death may have a serious impact on these victims. A perpetrator’s death can even trigger suicidal ideation.
“My complaints last month to the Australian Child Abuse Royal Commission detailed two incidents in which Kidman subjected me to horrific physical and sexual assault” Barnett said. “But there are even more serious crimes against children that I witnessed Kidman commit as a member of the elite Sydney pedophile ring. Those complaints have gone to the International Common Law Court of Justice in Brussels.”

Five years ago, if I had managed to even come across a story like this at all, I suppose I would’ve just understood it as the simple death of a celebrity’s father who was being accused of sexual abuse.

But now, I read something like this, and understand that these sorts of allegations such as the ones being put forth by Fiona Barnett are really just tiny glimpses of the underlying, horrific underground whose existence is possibly one of the most horrific things a typical person might ever imagine. And as I do so, I am reminded why I get so worked up sometimes.

Right now, the mainstream media is in a full-on campaign of debating the topics of domestic violence and child abuse in the wake of there being now three separate NFL players whose conduct has been brought into the national spotlight, and yet, when you compare any of these incidents with the gravity and scale of the proposition that there are actually untold number of secret groups of people, powerful people, involved in things like Satanic ritual abuse, pedophilia rings, human trafficking, and actually sacrificing innocent children in occult rituals, it is so beyond the pale that most folks just can’t even begin to let themselves think that such a thing could be possible, and going on all over the place, right under our collective noses.

satantic_ritual_abuseI am reminded of the fact that when I myself was first introduced to these claims, I absolutely and categorically did not want to believe them either. Such an idea is so repulsive, so contrary to the conception of the kind of world we thought we lived in, that it staggers the mind. I fully confess that I was a hard and fast skeptic of the entire notion of “SRA” (satanic ritual abuse) and the accompanying phenomena commonly referred to as MPD/DID (multiple personality disorder / dissociative identity disorder), otherwise known as “mind-control programming”.

The whole thing just seemed like way too much, way too disturbing, too hard for me to understand, and too hard to “prove” anyhow. After all, with 9/11, every time I started to wonder if maybe I was just “obsessed” with the idea of a conspiracy that didn’t exist, I could always go back to the footage of building 7, and sure enough, there it was, still unmistakably falling as a clear-cut and obvious controlled demolition… But SRA? There was no “smoking gun” evidence, no video I could go and watch to crystalize it into my mind in the same sort of way. And so, it was a much slower, longer process of coming to believe that it was in fact just as real, and something I was in fact very reluctant to admit my belief in.

In many places, the Bible talks about “the testimony of 2 or 3 witnesses” (John 8:17, Deut 19:15). So what about when you are faced with the testimonies of dozens upon dozens of individuals…?

After almost five years now having gone by since I was first introduced to this idea in earnest (and by that I mean, a clear and educated explanation of what SRA is, how it works, and where it comes from, not just distorted caricatures portrayed in movies or tv) I have now heard enough testimonies, from enough people, coming from separate trajectories, which all ultimately serve to underscore the fact that satanic ritual abuse is a very real thing, happening today, and as such should be something which sickens and motivates the believers in Christ, indeed all people who care about the innocence and lives of children and victims, to do something about it, and stop pretending that such a thing isn’t even real…

There are far too many names and resources attached to this study for me to list them all in a single blog post, but here are a few that have been central to my own journey of coming to understanding this dark reality:


Russ Dizdar – Former pastor, evangelist, counselor of victims of SRA/DID, former consultant to police departments on occult crimes. Author of the book “The Black Awakening”.
Doug Riggs – Pastor and counselor of victims of SRA/DID
Patricia Baird Clark – author and counselor of victims of SRA/DID and demon possession. Teaches on spiritual warfare.
Dr. Preston Baily – counselor and author of “SPIRITUAL WARFARE: Defeating the Forces of Darkness”. Also assisted law enforcement agencies in occult crimes.

All four of the above sites contain a great deal of information on the topic as a whole, including videos, audio files, written articles, and many testimonies of victims who have witnessed experienced these horrible acts firsthand.

Other victims/testimonies:

Carolyn Hamlett – Grew up in a generational occult family, survivor of SRA/mind control, born-again Christian.
“Meadow Rain” – 2 part interview of a Christian woman who talks about her experience of SRA in an elementary school. (part 1 / part 2)
Nancy Dunn – SRA survivor
Jenny Hill – SRA survivor whose story is told in the book “22 Faces” by Judy Byington

PDF article on The Origins and Techniques of Monarch Mind Control

Survivorship – An organization which supports the survivors of extreme child abuse, including sadistic sexual abuse, ritualistic abuse, mind control, and torture. Lots of information to be found here as well.

The bottom line is, I am convinced this stuff is all too real, and impacting the lives of men and women, boys and girls, all around us. It is when you start to listen to the testimonies, and understand just how widespread and devious the secrecy surrounding it all is, that you begin to really appreciate just how important it is for us to be educated about the reality and presence of dark spiritual forces in our world, our country, and our neighborhoods. It is one thing to feel somewhat removed from the plottings and schemings of the nefarious “banksters” and cabal members fomenting their plans for world domination in smoky boardrooms or lavish private mansions somewhere. It is quite another thing to think about the fact that people all around us, children, are being used and abused in such a way that I know kindles the wrath of God like nothing almost nothing else.

They need to hear about and experience the pure, freeing, life-giving love of Jesus probably more than anyone, and we have to first be willing to accept the reality that such forms of radical evil actually exist in the world, if we are going to be of any help to the millions of people who have been directly affected by it…

6 thoughts on “How Great is that Darkness….”

  1. You’re funny! Did you just go from 911 truth, to satanic ritual abuse? Why yes, I think you did.

    You certainly haven’t offended me by talking about conspiracy theories. I’m all about embracing the crazy 😉

    About the darkness in the world, I wish it wasn’t so, but it is very real and quite pervasive. I come from the world of cults and communes, so it’s an issue I’m rather familiar with. My state has one of the worst foster systems in the country ranking somewhere around 49th. We’ve earned that by placing children with convicted sex offenders, by covering up abuse, by falsely accusing people to silence them. These are not secrets, they are facts being testified to in our state legislature. That duality between faking charges to persecute people and using the system to protect some genuine bad guys, means you have to keep a level head about it all. I resort to my X-files persona, trust no one. There are layers of deception woven in there that are often hard to sort out.

    As to Christ, I met Him in childhood, the ultimate white knight. In the midst of all that darkness, suddenly there He was. That healing power, that light, is simply phenomenal.

    1. It’s actually an interesting point you made, the secretive and hidden nature of a shadow government and the secret and hidden nature of SRA’s. You mention the illuminati, I tend to speak of alien lizard over lords. Same idea.

      One thing I am absolutely certain of, there are some dark forces at play in the world. I also know how brainwashing can be incredibly effective and is far more prevalent then we realize. Simple advertising is based on brainwashing techniques. Are we capable of programming people to go out into the world and do bad things? I suspect so, we’ve been researching it for a long time.

  2. I totally understand where you’re coming from. My quest began at age 15 when a friend and I saw a ufo upfront and personal. It was awesome but a long story so I won’t go into it here. That experience catapaulted me into researching the available info (this was 50 yrs ago) and I concluded that there’s something awry w/ how they (the “aliens”) interacted w/ their abductees. The first clue was they were ABDUCTED. In ’79 I was baptized in the Holy Spirit and when I asked the Lord about this topic His immediate answer was, “By their fruits you will know them”. Aha! I had uncovered no good fruit in my search but I still didn’t know who or what “they” were. Years later I was re-reading Genesis 6 – by then we had the internet – I had to find out about these giants who were “…and also after that”. One click led to another…and another…and another and this keyboard clicking went on for years – still does. I was and am amazed at the reality of this satan-goverened world. I encounter the same responses that you do when I bring up these things: eye rolling, snorts of derision, laughter, mmmmmm hmmmmms, etc. There have been a few whose paradigm has been altered and I’ve met a few who were already aware. Tho we know these things are true, the ultimate truth is our Lord Yeshua. He has impressed on me not to be too focused on the darkness which will pass with the brightness of His coming but to give greater emphasis to His light. He says to “Occupy ’til I come”. Occupy is a military term as well as an admonition to take care of business – both our own and His. (“Wist ye not that I must be about my Father’s business?”) We’re not to give up the spiritual ground we’ve gained and we are to gain more for the kingdom by loving people for Him, telling them about this great Salvation, ministering to them, praying for them. Too, He expects me to be responsible and obedient in my own personal life taking care of the things He has made me a steward over for Him, being upright in all my dealings, paying bills on time, living simply but comfortably, sharing my blessings with others. Another revelation I’ve had after finding out about all this gross darkness is the efficacy of our Lord’s blood. I used to think that sin was just about murder (as awful as that is), lying, cheating, etc but w/ the realization of the gross, gross darkness that covers the earth, any one or all of these involved can repent and be saved as their sins were also forgiven at Calvary. Blows my mind.

  3. Seems our psyches experienced the same type of responses to the acquisition of this information. Probably most people do. Like you, I was raised in a Christian environment and had the shock-of-a-lifetime upon finding out what is really going on governmentally and spiritually on planet earth. As to the balance of focus, it seems that wisdom would dictate that we focus more on bringing glory to our Lord. Nothing we do or say is going to eradicate the evil that saturates and rules TPTB. It’s even going to escalate until our Lord splits the heavens with His arrival regardless of what we do. My primary concern in all that I’ve found out is found in 2 Thes 2:11. “…and for this cause God shall send them strong delusion that they should believe THE lie”. (Some newer translations say “a” lie but I believe it’s THE lie). There are many layers of this lie and those who are not rooted and grounded in the Word of God w/ be – and are being – seduced to their eternal damnation. 11Thes tells us about “signs and lying wonders” that will appear and I believe that there w/ be a mass appearing of “ufos” and “aliens” displaying their inter-dimensional technology along w/ the “alien” gospel (we planted life here, Jesus is one of us, we’re here to save you from yourselves – blah, blah, blah) and many w/ fall for that drivel unless they are rooted and grounded. So, from that perspective I’ve had success in directing a few people who were borderline Christians to dig deeper into the Word and to seek the face of our Lord. Including a couple of pastors. So, I don’t have the perfect answer as to balance of focus but I’m of the opinion that the Holy Spirit will guide us as to what to say to whom and when.

  4. Nice post. Lots of work. Enjoyed reading the comments as well. We’re not crazy.
    There’s a big difference between “being” crazy and “feeling” crazy. I’ve been working with “crazy” people for years in a school setting. I notice that the people that are working with the “crazy” people are becoming more comfortably “crazy” (irrational) themselves.

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