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Time to Look Beyond…?

Is it about that time to just put the ol’ blog on the “shelf”…?

I just don’t know at this point.  I’ve been going back and forth on this for some time now.  For some time now, the number of original written posts here has dwindled, as I’ve gotten busier making videos for YT, and it has felt like all I’ve been using WordPress for is mainly just to repost those here, and after a while, I just have started to wonder what the point is in that.

It’s been a few months here since I dove head first into all the “Flat Earth research”, and what an interesting time it has been. I suppose the most unexpected result of all of that has been in how it has slowly shaped my overall perspective and drive towards all of the sorts of things which I was previously so keen on writing about here. All the New World Order / conspiracy-filled “stuff”, which felt like something that I could probably write about forever, until they finally closed down the web entirely to content as “objectionable” as that. (which I still expect isn’t too far off)

But now… I don’t really know how to explain it, but, it’s like so much of that ‘righteous angst’ and determination just started to fade. First I assumed it was simply because I was so consumed with just “trying to get to the bottom” of the whole FE issue, and Biblical cosmology as a whole. For the record I’ll say that I am still of course looking into the side of “empirical evidence for the Flat Earth”, but as to the question of what kind of cosmology the BIBLE actually describes? I really don’t have any lingering questions left in that department.

The simple fact of the matter is that I can no longer read the Scriptures anymore and find anything that can be used, with any integrity, to defend the Copernican model of the universe. It just. Ain’t. There.

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So I suppose that has really just served to change the way I think, and perceive, about so much, really. Because instead of wanting to jump on the computer and write about the latest examples of how our Constitutional rights are being steadily stripped away, or how Martial Law might actually be put into place one way or another, I now find myself just standing outside in my yard, staring up the sky. Or out for a drive, and looking across the valley at the mountains on the other side, marveling at the clouds, marveling at the sun, marveling at the moon… Just, marveling…

I don’t quite know how to explain how or why, but all the machinations of the World, and the Fallen One, seem so small now. So petty and almost comical. So much more about smoke-and-mirrors, really, than true, raw, dangerous “power”. Of course, prior to all this, I would have THOUGHT that I believed that’s all it was, but somehow now I can see how much I was still very much getting sucked into so much of the hype, the fear, the thought-diversion…

I still absolutely look at things like 9/11 and see a False Flag act of “terror”, if ever there was one. I still see nothing but lies in news reports about “ISIS” or “climate change” or “Russian aggression”, and so on. But, I just don’t know how to feel riled up about any of it anymore. I don’t feel the same sense of “urgency” about it all. Not because I don’t think a one-world-antiChrist-system isn’t being constructed all around us with each new day, but because I KNOW it is, and for whatever reason, all this “Flat Earth nonsense” has somehow worked to help me FINALLY grasp, (on an internal, gut-level) that God is absolutely, totally, in control.

When I started blogging almost five years ago (I’ve had a few different blog titles/handles in that time) it was really just for the purpose of having my own little “corner” where I could ramble on about all the crazy information I was newly processing, a place where I could digest and discuss things, without getting eyebrow-raised looks from across the table, and just kind of collect and gather links and bit-and-pieces from around the net which seemed to correlate to where I was at. It wasn’t about spreading a “message” or “building readership”, but of course, when you blog for a while, you do start to feel those pressures, and I have pushed back and forth with them here and there, I’ll admit. I had to learn not to get frustrated with many of the very good-hearted and Spirit-filled fellow Christian bloggers I met, who are very solid in their Faith, but nonetheless quite adamant in not wanting to look into any of the “weird and dark” stuff which I found myself unable to not want to know if it was “really real”. I had to simultaneously learn to engage with and build relationships with fellow “conspiracy bloggers” who were either ambivalent, or even outright hostile, to the Gospel of Jesus. There have been too a small handful of treasured folks who have wound up in that “sliver in the middle” along with me, and I am grateful for them.

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And then, once I started “tumbling down the Flat Earth rabbit hole”, that sliver turned into almost an imperceptible slice. I can probably count on one hand the number of people who have commented or engaged with me on the blog, since I stared writing about this FE question. Most “conspiracy folks” won’t touch it. Most Christians won’t touch it. And the thing is, I knew from the get-go that it would almost certainly be that kind of ultra-alienating endeavor, yet I did it anyway…

I’ve even seen a few people who started out as just “average-joe Christian conspiracy bloggers”, who have now several years later managed to make somewhat of a “name for themselves” in this bizarre little niche genre we happen to have here. I’ve never wanted that, and it has been admittedly somewhat difficult to watch some of those individuals go from being very approachable, “down-to-Earth people”, to now being more or less inaccessible, due to their throngs of Youtube subscribers and podcast listeners, etc. Yes, the spotlight of “alternative media” can seduce people just powerfully as any other form…

So, anyhow. I certainly hope that I’m not coming across as sounding bitter, or despondent, or anything like that, because like I said, I just feel… I dunno, a sense of “release”, at this point? I’m not really “burning with questions” or “fired up with indignation against the powers that be” like I once was. People believe, what they WANT to believe. I guess that is one of the biggest take-aways from this whole thing for me. (myself included there, plz don’t think I’m so arrogant as to not realize that!)

I don’t know what’s going to happen, in the next year, the next decade, or tomorrow. I don’t know if things like blogs, or youtube channels, or whatever, will even remain as uncensored as they have been for all that much longer. (Youtube is actually rolling out some very big changes in the next day or two, and we’ll see exactly what that’s going to entail soon enough) I don’t know if in my lifetime, the world is going to actually transition from the current state of still having “quasi-sovereign nation states” to a full-blown, fully-recognized, one-world-government.

But, I know what the Bible says, and I know it WILL happen, sooner or later.

I know that each of us is given what is really a very short time, on the Earth, (whatever it’s shape may be!), and that God wants us to use that time to recognize our true need for HIM, and to seek Him, and truly find Him…

It’s hard to step back, and look at all my writing, all the media I’ve thrown together in this way or that, and have to ask myself how much I’ve really helped anyone else do that. Have I helped anyone find HIM? or have I just spread more fear, and anxiety, and confusion? Have I helped strip away all the noise and nonsense which obscures the Light of Christ? or have I just added to it, in the midst of all my own confusion and ranting and rambling…

I do sincerely, earnestly, hope it has been at least a little more of the former than the latter. I’m no one special. I’m a very fallen, weak human, actually, just like the rest of us, and I am admittedly someone who for whatever reason just “has to look into it”, when something anomalous comes across my path. It gets me into trouble sometimes, but I do believe God is able to sympathize with a lot of it, and give more than enough Grace to pull you through over to the other side, where He has been patiently waiting, watching over you, the whole time.

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“Where’d you go…?”

I have been asked this many times over the last month or so, and it is admittedly my own fault.  I had some technical problems with the old blog.  Then I just shut it down.  Then I moved it.  Then I just, stopped.  It turned into an unanticipated yet much-needed break.  Not so much because writing itself is so “exhausting” or anything, but, I suppose because of the nature of the “research” I tend to gravitate towards, the truth is that it really does tend to over-saturate your thinking after a while, to the point where you almost don’t even remember how to have a “regular” conversation with people anymore, or just enjoy the simplest of life’s pleasures, or even enjoying and appreciating the company of my own family…

There have been certain days during this impromptu hiatus where I was honestly a tad depressed, feeling like all this attention and commentary and such on how the world at large is spinning out of control, is really just largely inconsequential anyhow.  Like, when you just completely stop writing, reading, thinking about it, just completely unplug, maybe you start to wonder how much of all that activity was just a way of trying to cope with a myriad of things which are all outside of our ability to do anything about it anyhow.  Some slightly over-inflated sense of one’s own involvement in it all.  It’s a weird world, a strange society in which we all live, where billions of us are now constantly posting things, tweeting things, sharing things, ad nauseam, as if we all believe our insights on things are really oh so profound…

I am not necessarily attempting to defend these kinds of sentiments now, but I suppose I’m just giving a little window into the kind of cynicism which can quite unexpectedly wash over my perspective from time to time.

And so, it seems that this question of where lies the fine line between a truly cynical, defeatist perspective, and an outlook on things which is genuinely just trying to be a courageously honest, discerning, and Biblically-sound one, is a question that most likely myself (and many others) will never be able to fully shake ourselves free from. Balance, after all, is something one must constantly keep consciously striving for, in order to maintain it.

So, yeah… I didn’t go anywhere. Still here. And so is the crazy stuff on this crazy, spinning orb. I actually like not having my days being filled with questions over what exactly is going on with the Walmarts and Jade Helm, etc., or whether or not CERN is some kind of interdimensional portal to the nether world, or whether the recent shooter in S.C. was another MK Ultra-esque tool of the Elite’s agenda. It all keeps on unfolding according to the same “script” anyhow, whether I’m frantically trying to keep up with every little development or not. Right?

I got a few books from the library the other day. Actual, paper-bound books. Has it really been so long since I read something where I had to turn a physical page? Bizarre… I have been pushing myself to start drawing/painting again as well (as opposed to just manipulating things via photoshop…) There is something almost indescribably pleasing to the internal, primal need for creation about the act of making marks on paper with one’s bare hands. But it does require a bit more effort and patience of course, and as such I am finding that it helps pull one’s psyche back away from the frantic/scrambled neural habits formed by hours of computer usage. Back towards what I think I would defend as a much more intended way of functioning as humans, with the ability to reflect and focus on something for a longer period of time, even if that thing isn’t terribly impressive or complex in and of itself. Even painting a wall or a room a single color can be surprisingly satisfying I have found, because you did it with your own hands, and the entire experience involved no RGB light assaulting your retinas…

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Anyhow. The picture above is one I did a couple of afternoons ago, inspired by the desert slopes of Sunrise Mountain, the view of which fills our front window.

The Truth is stranger than Radio…. (project in the works…)

truthradioOk, so I’ve been kicking around the idea of doing some kind of podcast / radio project / “radio” sort of thang / for quite some time now, but still haven’t quite got there, although I am constantly playing around with sounds/music for “intros”, as that seems to be fun to do just for it’s own sake, and so perhaps that is even half my motive for wanting to do such a thing in the first place.  🙂  But anyhow, I’m still in the “brainstorming” phase really, (I suppose I more or less live in the that phase, but no matter…) and really I don’t know exactly where it might go, but all I think I do know at this point is that I’d want it to be something different, something very free and open in it’s format, and honestly I don’t think I’m looking to do another “let’s sit and interview this author/speaker/person” show, not because I don’t like those types of podcasts, because I love em, it’s just that I don’t necessarily think that’s either my “strength” or my cup o’ tea necessarily…

I think I’m more envisioning something more compilation-oriented, in the vein of say, NPR radio-shows such as “This American Life”, or “Radiolab”, if you’re familiar with those. Just more like little collections of “sound vignettes” and more like just random recorded conversations with people, about, well, all the fun/weird/crazy/prophetic stuff that typically finds it’s way onto the blog here, only I think I’d actually be hoping to collaborate with a lot of my fellow YOUs out there, in a project like this, my friends (and just anybody really) out there in the ‘sphere who might want to talk about, well, anything… How’s that sound? I’d love to just get recordings of stuff like, people’s testimonies, views on what’s going on in the world, governments, pop culture, music, art, the Bible, “spirituality”, conspiracies, NWO, movies, books, and of course, TRUTH!

I already have several of you specifically in mind, so be prepared to start getting some emails peeps, and please, do take the time to let me know what kinds of things YOU’D be interested in talking about, listening to, and just seeing tried overall. It’s not intended to be the most amazing thing you’ve ever heard in terms of “production value” or anything, nor is it hoped to be something that would garner some massive audience. It’s just, like this blog, another small outlet, a way of hopefully being able connect in a slightly “deeper” way with lots of other people out there, collaborate, get creative, and actually be able to hear the tones in each other’s voices…. Here’s one of the “intros” I’ve come up with:

Organic Gardening, In The Desert…

Okay, so here’s something a little different from my usual writing forays… Just some pics of my little garden project, finally underway. Been wanting to get back into gardening for many years, and after 2 years of living in Vegas, I am now officially giving it a go. And yes, while many around the country, and the rest of the Western Hemisphere I suppose, are still fighting off winter chills, here in the Vegas Valley we’ve been seeing record temps up in the 70’s, and even the 80’s a few times, since before February even began. From what my research thus far has told me, essentially the weather here allows for two windows of growing seasons, on either side of the please-shoot-me-now summer heat. I planted some organic, heirloom (of course) seeds about one week ago, and most of them have already sprouted, seeming to very much like the plastic egg containers I used as little mini greenhouses. So far I have started some spinach, arugula, basil, and tomatoes, but I plan to expand the “crop” once I get these first ones settled in.

After about 1 week, starting to sprout..
After about 1 week, starting to sprout..

I have also finished building some garden boxes which I will be moving the seedlings into, once they are big enough for replanting in the actual ground. Of course, I am going to have to go to Home Depot and basically buy all the soil with which to fill the raised beds, since the natural dirt in this area is virtually devoid of any actual organic matter and nutrients, etc…
Used recycled wood from an old section of fence to put these together...
Used recycled wood from an old section of fence to put these together…

And now, for no real particular reason, here are some shots of my other beloved little green friends:
My succulents. I hope to be able to grow all of these varieties into fairly large plants eventually, with all the desert sun, and low humidity.
My succulents. I hope to be able to grow all of these varieties into fairly large plants eventually, with all the desert sun, and low humidity.
My little bonsai trees.
My little bonsai trees.

Frustrations and Joys…

Man… SO many things going on right this very minute, so many things I want to write about, and research, and discuss with all of you, yet, finding myself being forced to take a little break here, at least for the time being. Last week I suddenly found myself dealing with a very severe onset of what would seem to be carpal tunnel in my left wrist/hand/fingers. Even typing this now is difficult, wearing a brace on my wrist, pain shooting through my fingers. Can’t play drums. Can’t play basketball with my kids. Can’t hardly pick up a frying pan to make my family breakfast. I feel like very much the invalid at the moment, yet my mind won’t slow down. I could probably write ten posts a day at this point, if, you know, I was living by myself without an amazing family to love and take care for.

And on THAT note, I suppose I need to step back and listen to HIM probably saying that such a break from intense online investigation and inquiry is what everybody in the “Truth is Stranger household” could use about now. Been seeing some amazing breakthroughs with our autistic son lately, and yet at the same time it of course continues to be a very challenging part of our lives, and it’s honestly been something I’ve been feeling compelled to talk about more here, although at the same time I am of course rather wary about putting too much detailed info about my family on the interwebs. So, as I continue to pray about how to best go about that, I’ll end this by leaving a recommendation for a movie my wife and I saw this weekend that really encouraged us called “The United States of Autism”. Essentially this indie film is about a father of a son with autism who travels the country and meets with 21 different families with autistic kids, giving a very broad scope of what living with autism can be like, and also of the various attitudes and reactions people have towards the autism epidemic as a whole. Here’s the trailer:

And if you’re interested, (and especially if you have Netflix, as all three of these titles are available for streaming) two other similar films we’ve absolutely loved are called “A Mother’s Courage“, and “Dad’s in Heaven with Nixon“.