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Time to Look Beyond…?

Is it about that time to just put the ol’ blog on the “shelf”…?

I just don’t know at this point.  I’ve been going back and forth on this for some time now.  For some time now, the number of original written posts here has dwindled, as I’ve gotten busier making videos for YT, and it has felt like all I’ve been using WordPress for is mainly just to repost those here, and after a while, I just have started to wonder what the point is in that.

It’s been a few months here since I dove head first into all the “Flat Earth research”, and what an interesting time it has been. I suppose the most unexpected result of all of that has been in how it has slowly shaped my overall perspective and drive towards all of the sorts of things which I was previously so keen on writing about here. All the New World Order / conspiracy-filled “stuff”, which felt like something that I could probably write about forever, until they finally closed down the web entirely to content as “objectionable” as that. (which I still expect isn’t too far off)

But now… I don’t really know how to explain it, but, it’s like so much of that ‘righteous angst’ and determination just started to fade. First I assumed it was simply because I was so consumed with just “trying to get to the bottom” of the whole FE issue, and Biblical cosmology as a whole. For the record I’ll say that I am still of course looking into the side of “empirical evidence for the Flat Earth”, but as to the question of what kind of cosmology the BIBLE actually describes? I really don’t have any lingering questions left in that department.

The simple fact of the matter is that I can no longer read the Scriptures anymore and find anything that can be used, with any integrity, to defend the Copernican model of the universe. It just. Ain’t. There.

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So I suppose that has really just served to change the way I think, and perceive, about so much, really. Because instead of wanting to jump on the computer and write about the latest examples of how our Constitutional rights are being steadily stripped away, or how Martial Law might actually be put into place one way or another, I now find myself just standing outside in my yard, staring up the sky. Or out for a drive, and looking across the valley at the mountains on the other side, marveling at the clouds, marveling at the sun, marveling at the moon… Just, marveling…

I don’t quite know how to explain how or why, but all the machinations of the World, and the Fallen One, seem so small now. So petty and almost comical. So much more about smoke-and-mirrors, really, than true, raw, dangerous “power”. Of course, prior to all this, I would have THOUGHT that I believed that’s all it was, but somehow now I can see how much I was still very much getting sucked into so much of the hype, the fear, the thought-diversion…

I still absolutely look at things like 9/11 and see a False Flag act of “terror”, if ever there was one. I still see nothing but lies in news reports about “ISIS” or “climate change” or “Russian aggression”, and so on. But, I just don’t know how to feel riled up about any of it anymore. I don’t feel the same sense of “urgency” about it all. Not because I don’t think a one-world-antiChrist-system isn’t being constructed all around us with each new day, but because I KNOW it is, and for whatever reason, all this “Flat Earth nonsense” has somehow worked to help me FINALLY grasp, (on an internal, gut-level) that God is absolutely, totally, in control.

When I started blogging almost five years ago (I’ve had a few different blog titles/handles in that time) it was really just for the purpose of having my own little “corner” where I could ramble on about all the crazy information I was newly processing, a place where I could digest and discuss things, without getting eyebrow-raised looks from across the table, and just kind of collect and gather links and bit-and-pieces from around the net which seemed to correlate to where I was at. It wasn’t about spreading a “message” or “building readership”, but of course, when you blog for a while, you do start to feel those pressures, and I have pushed back and forth with them here and there, I’ll admit. I had to learn not to get frustrated with many of the very good-hearted and Spirit-filled fellow Christian bloggers I met, who are very solid in their Faith, but nonetheless quite adamant in not wanting to look into any of the “weird and dark” stuff which I found myself unable to not want to know if it was “really real”. I had to simultaneously learn to engage with and build relationships with fellow “conspiracy bloggers” who were either ambivalent, or even outright hostile, to the Gospel of Jesus. There have been too a small handful of treasured folks who have wound up in that “sliver in the middle” along with me, and I am grateful for them.

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And then, once I started “tumbling down the Flat Earth rabbit hole”, that sliver turned into almost an imperceptible slice. I can probably count on one hand the number of people who have commented or engaged with me on the blog, since I stared writing about this FE question. Most “conspiracy folks” won’t touch it. Most Christians won’t touch it. And the thing is, I knew from the get-go that it would almost certainly be that kind of ultra-alienating endeavor, yet I did it anyway…

I’ve even seen a few people who started out as just “average-joe Christian conspiracy bloggers”, who have now several years later managed to make somewhat of a “name for themselves” in this bizarre little niche genre we happen to have here. I’ve never wanted that, and it has been admittedly somewhat difficult to watch some of those individuals go from being very approachable, “down-to-Earth people”, to now being more or less inaccessible, due to their throngs of Youtube subscribers and podcast listeners, etc. Yes, the spotlight of “alternative media” can seduce people just powerfully as any other form…

So, anyhow. I certainly hope that I’m not coming across as sounding bitter, or despondent, or anything like that, because like I said, I just feel… I dunno, a sense of “release”, at this point? I’m not really “burning with questions” or “fired up with indignation against the powers that be” like I once was. People believe, what they WANT to believe. I guess that is one of the biggest take-aways from this whole thing for me. (myself included there, plz don’t think I’m so arrogant as to not realize that!)

I don’t know what’s going to happen, in the next year, the next decade, or tomorrow. I don’t know if things like blogs, or youtube channels, or whatever, will even remain as uncensored as they have been for all that much longer. (Youtube is actually rolling out some very big changes in the next day or two, and we’ll see exactly what that’s going to entail soon enough) I don’t know if in my lifetime, the world is going to actually transition from the current state of still having “quasi-sovereign nation states” to a full-blown, fully-recognized, one-world-government.

But, I know what the Bible says, and I know it WILL happen, sooner or later.

I know that each of us is given what is really a very short time, on the Earth, (whatever it’s shape may be!), and that God wants us to use that time to recognize our true need for HIM, and to seek Him, and truly find Him…

It’s hard to step back, and look at all my writing, all the media I’ve thrown together in this way or that, and have to ask myself how much I’ve really helped anyone else do that. Have I helped anyone find HIM? or have I just spread more fear, and anxiety, and confusion? Have I helped strip away all the noise and nonsense which obscures the Light of Christ? or have I just added to it, in the midst of all my own confusion and ranting and rambling…

I do sincerely, earnestly, hope it has been at least a little more of the former than the latter. I’m no one special. I’m a very fallen, weak human, actually, just like the rest of us, and I am admittedly someone who for whatever reason just “has to look into it”, when something anomalous comes across my path. It gets me into trouble sometimes, but I do believe God is able to sympathize with a lot of it, and give more than enough Grace to pull you through over to the other side, where He has been patiently waiting, watching over you, the whole time.

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Transcendensity…

archangelblurred2This is what posts sound like when written on very, very little sleep.  Seeking to transcend my own body’s somnial needs right now.  Been pretty busy on the homefront lately.  So much is happening in the big wide world right now, Uncle Ben just spoke to Congress, causing quite an uproar apparently, Kent Hovind is set to begin his new trial in a couple of days, the DHS is the latest government uber-structure being used to goad the public into deeper debt, and I’m too out of it to even remember what day of the week it is, let alone provide anything read-worthy of current events.

To the left is a little piece I made many years ago, one of several which I created long before I had any ever heard of things like Nephilim or transhumanism or fallen angels overseeing a technological attempt at usurping God’s throne, yet it’s strange how much I was seemingly drawn to certain concepts before ever having much of an idea as to why. Funny enough, the critics might say that this would suggest that perhaps my beliefs in them now is merely the extrapolation of early, inner desires to believe in the scientastic (I think I just made up that word, writing when you’re beyond exhausted is kind of cool…), but, this is not true.

There are still, many, many days where I simply want to wake up, fry the eggs, scrub the dishes, go through my checklist, and just make it to the end of the day when I get to have a beer and watch some mind-numbing, alpha-wave-inducing tele-picture-box. But even the glowy-box doesn’t lend itself to comatosis the way it used to. The other day I was watching this funny little cartoon with my son called “Clarence”, and right towards the end, Clarence finds himself the only kid in his school not being mind-controlled by the corporate-funded cafeteria food, and he saves his classmates by bursting in on a Eyes-Wide-Shut-type of Illuminati ritual (well, minus the orgy). Alas. Cartoons used to basically be comprised of one animated animal trying to catch another one, over and over again, and failing every time in slapstick glory.

Some people meditate in order to try and transcend the “illusory” world around them, and by this, they don’t mean the matrix of lies and propaganda being thrown at us everywhere we turn, they simply mean the world. All of it. Even their own self, their own conscious awareness of even existing as anything distinct from everything else. I suppose this sounds nice, in a way, sort of like being a baby in the womb I suppose. But then again, no. No it does not. That sounds like being a vegetable to me…

Other people want to transcend the grind of humanity by technological upgrades, Johnny-Depp style. Become a cyborg. Become an uploaded algorithm of all your memories in a computer. Better yet, become a mix of both, like the villain in the upcoming transhumanist propaganda piece, Avengers 2. Again, this does not seem terribly transcendent to me either, simply a more metallic form of vegetable…

No… I know that we are called do a very different kind of transcending. In the midst of the drudgery of paying bills, folding laundry, making your kids eat the vegetables (not the tranced-out meditators, the green plant variety), and watching the world fall apart just a tiny bit more every time we get a glance at it, we are called, to Rejoice. Always.

“Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

Organic Gardening, In The Desert…

Okay, so here’s something a little different from my usual writing forays… Just some pics of my little garden project, finally underway. Been wanting to get back into gardening for many years, and after 2 years of living in Vegas, I am now officially giving it a go. And yes, while many around the country, and the rest of the Western Hemisphere I suppose, are still fighting off winter chills, here in the Vegas Valley we’ve been seeing record temps up in the 70’s, and even the 80’s a few times, since before February even began. From what my research thus far has told me, essentially the weather here allows for two windows of growing seasons, on either side of the please-shoot-me-now summer heat. I planted some organic, heirloom (of course) seeds about one week ago, and most of them have already sprouted, seeming to very much like the plastic egg containers I used as little mini greenhouses. So far I have started some spinach, arugula, basil, and tomatoes, but I plan to expand the “crop” once I get these first ones settled in.

After about 1 week, starting to sprout..
After about 1 week, starting to sprout..

I have also finished building some garden boxes which I will be moving the seedlings into, once they are big enough for replanting in the actual ground. Of course, I am going to have to go to Home Depot and basically buy all the soil with which to fill the raised beds, since the natural dirt in this area is virtually devoid of any actual organic matter and nutrients, etc…
Used recycled wood from an old section of fence to put these together...
Used recycled wood from an old section of fence to put these together…

And now, for no real particular reason, here are some shots of my other beloved little green friends:
My succulents. I hope to be able to grow all of these varieties into fairly large plants eventually, with all the desert sun, and low humidity.
My succulents. I hope to be able to grow all of these varieties into fairly large plants eventually, with all the desert sun, and low humidity.
My little bonsai trees.
My little bonsai trees.